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173 – Being Human – More Observations

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More Observations

As someone who is generally recognised as an incarnated god (for want of a better word), being human is not something I’m all that good at. I thought, though, I would write some entries on what it is like for me, and also what I’ve learned. Today I will give more observations on my limited, though hopefully relevant, experiences.

Being Self- Conscious

I used to always worry about what others thought about me. I was extremely self-conscious.

It took me a very long time to realise this, but I finally understood that most people were too busy worrying about what others thought of themselves. Others barely rated a blip on their radar.

Sure, there are always some who will take great delight in hating and putting you down just because you exist. That’s generally due to needing negative attention, which is borne of ego, self-loathing, or psychological trauma. Anything to take attention away from themselves. (Though, some will have past life issues with you, or might just be demonics doing what demonics do.)

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172 – Being Human – Am I Asexual?

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Being Asexual

As someone who is generally recognized as an incarnated god (for want of a better word), being human is not something I’m all that good at. I thought, though, I would write some entries on what it is like for me, and also what I’ve learned. This entry, I look at sex and if I am asexual.

Sex Drive

I’ve never had much interest in seeking out partners and having sex with them.

For many, sex is a driving force that creates relationships and is also a vital need. For me, it never has been.

I noticed that, once I had gotten past my shift into puberty, my sex drive appeared to diminish and by the time I was around age twenty, it was not really a primary factor when seeking a partner.

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171 – Being Human – Life Lessons

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As someone who is generally recognised as an incarnated god (for want of a better word), being human is not something I’m all that good at. I thought, though, I would write some entries on what it is like for me, and also what I’ve learned. This entry, I focus on some of my Life Lessons.

Filters

When I was younger, I had no filters. If I saw something, I would just say it. I also had a need to be acknowledged and recognized. Though, that might have been mostly because many people demeaned me and assumed I was mentally disabled or had a low intelligence. Hence, I had an overwhelming need to prove myself. Failure was not an option.

Filters didn’t really start to come until I was around 13 years old. Even then, it took me a long time to get my head around them.  If I saw something, I would say it. I also saw no reason to not state the obvious.

I just assumed that if I could see things, others could, too.

Things were so blatantly obvious to me that I just assumed that others ignored them because they didn’t consider them important. It turned out that they not only did not see them, but argued I was wrong. (Though, I found that I rarely was.)

The life lesson here was that not everyone sees things the same as others.

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