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64 – Nephthys On Her Father, Geb

Self-Indulgence

The last entry Nephthys wrote for me, was about me. (Geb) Maybe it’s self-indulgent me putting it here, but I’m going to do so, anyway.

I thank Neph for her contributions and shedding light on a controversial part of mythology.

In The Beginning

In the beginning, before everything went bad, Geb took care of us all. We listened when he spoke, for his words never harmed any of us. He was helpful to all. Not just some, but to all.

All Gods came to Geb at one time, or another. Sometimes we would get upset for not hearing what we wanted, but once we saw he was right, time and time again, it just felt natural to seek Geb.

He didn’t care how big, or small your problem was, he always had a solution. When disagreements came about, Geb was the peace maker. He didn’t take sides, he took both parties, and showed them a solution to end the problem.

Strong Bond

Now don’t think Geb wasn’t powerful, he was one of the most powerful.

Geb had a strong bond with all his children. You could say he wasn’t just our father, he was our friend. He protected us, as we protected him. He would have gatherings with family, and friends all the time.

When our family started to have problems, Geb was there for us all. He never picked sides. His children (Osiris, and Nephthys) thought we could make some choices without consulting Geb.

He warned us and tried to get us to stop what we were doing, but we were already in too deep. Geb never turned his back on us for doing our wrong. Even being deep in shit, Geb never left our side.

Guess you could say, his children actually left him.

A Dark Place

But the one thing about Geb is that he has never held anger towards any of us. With all the wrong we’ve done, my father is still here for us, helping us heal.

When I found Geb in this life, I was in a very dark place. My father never once turned me away, instead he helped me heal. I wanted to leave this hell, but my father stood beside me, and pushed me forward. He would not let me give up.

As I go to write what I know, I fill with anger, and I want to let everyone know he didn’t do anything wrong. You all blame him for your actions. We all chose fame, and power over doing what was right. We are not stuck here: we are paying our dues/healing from our mistakes.

Going Home

The longer it takes for you to stop blaming him, the sooner you can go home. He is not stopping you from leaving this place, you are stopping yourself. You know deep down in your soul you did wrong. Not Geb.

Before things went bad in Egypt, everyone looked to Geb for guidance. He never done any of us wrong. You didn’t have to be his family for Geb to help you with what was needed. We all listened to what he had to say, and never thought he could possibly be wrong. The powers he holds were/is to protect all of us, not help wage war on each other.

When things started changing, Geb was the one who tried to make peace. He didn’t preach to the crowds, but each individual that he knew was having problems, he would go and talk with.

Geb’s family was very important to him. And with Isis, Nut, Hathor, and Lilith all trying to take his power, (Phoenix power) Geb stayed back in the shadows listening and watching.

Warnings

Giving warnings to us all. Geb warned Osiris, but Osiris chose not to listen to his father. I chose not to listen to my father.

Even with Seth giving me the same warning, I didn’t listen. Seth… he listened to what Geb had to say, but the anger that raged inside, made Seth choose to leave.

As Egypt started to fall, Geb was still there for us all.

Sure, he had his own enemies trying to destroy him so they could rule in his place. By that I mean, his voice was calming, his words were wisdom. Geb’s doing now, as he did then, helping us all remember who we are, helping us heal, so we can all go home.

Let Go

If we know who we are, and have memories of the past, why can’t you remember how kind Geb was? Why can you not let go of the hate you created for him because of your actions of the past?

Let go of the past if you want to go home. Let Geb show you how to get home. He’s been here with us all this time, trying to help us all find our way home.

So you hold anger because Geb didn’t stop the fall of Egypt? We all knew what we were doing would catch up to us at some point. We all knew Geb could have stopped it all, but what would we have learned from that?

Nothing, except for we can do what we want, ’cause we know someone would come behind us, and fix it. That would have just made things worse for this world.

Could you imagine all Gods fighting for power in this day and age? I can tell you now, the world would not be as it is today. You would not have the freedom you do now.

Forgiveness

I’ve done some very bad things in my past that I’m not proud of, but one thing I am proud of is Geb. He forgave me for all the wrong I’ve done. He’s the one who helped me heal in this life.

Geb wants to go home too, but he refuses to leave any of us who truly want to heal and go home, behind. You may not like what he has to say, but believe me, he knows what he’s talking about.

I choose to stay here and heal. I want to go home more than anything, but I will not go until Geb goes, too.

Sorry for sounding so harsh, I just get full of rage when I see others thinking my father is here to harm us. When others blame him for their own actions. I was a dark evil bitch for many life times, I was forgiven, and started to heal. During that process, I was told I get to go home. So please tell me how Geb is at fault for our actions.

Healing

I’ve seen many come to my father for healing, and I’ve seen others attack him for helping all of us and blaming him for their mistakes.

Geb could go home at any time he wanted, but he refuses to leave any of his family behind. We all came here together; we all leave here together.

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63 – Nephthys -: Osiris’ Death. The Aftermath.

Secrets

I gave my word that I would never speak of what ISIS did to Osiris. Osiris made me give him my word. The only reason why I speak of it now is because of the damage it did to me, and to him.

I’m sure Seth’s anger had something to do with Osiris, and ISIS. But not the reasons we think. This may surprise most of you, but it had nothing to do with me.

Like I said before, my actions just added fuel to the fire. Not because Seth and I were in love, but because I always respected him, and took his advice.

Warnings

Seth warned me to stay away, but this one time, I didn’t listen. I took it upon myself to take ISIS at her word that she would leave me alone. I thought I could fix this on my own. Not knowing at the time, Osiris was in the situation he was in.

Because Osiris is my brother, I can feel when he’s upset with me. (Just like now, he feels I went back on my word.) Maybe I did, but I did it to help him. He’s my brother.

Guess you can say he’s the male side of my soul. I want to tell his story, to help him, and to heal what I’ve done to him.

Cut To Pieces

It is true, Seth did cut Osiris into pieces. It’s also true that I went with ISIS to gather all his parts. It is also true that a part of him wasn’t found. (The Phallus.) And it’s also true that his spine wasn’t found.

As ISIS and I searched for Osiris’s missing pieces, I found his spine. I was so pissed off at him for not speaking up on my behalf, I hid it. He didn’t use it anyways, why did he need it now? 

As ISIS, and I, put Osiris back together, she noticed the spine was missing. She also knew it wouldn’t work if all the pieces were not put back.

The Deal

So… ISIS made a deal with Horus. He was to step in, and become Osiris. She told him this would only be temporary. As Horus went around as Osiris, ISIS, and I kept searching for those missing pieces. At this point, I hated ISIS, and Osiris, and I wasn’t giving up what I had hidden.

ISIS started to notice that the body of Osiris was starting to look different. It wasn’t holding its shape. Its spine was missing. ISIS panicked.

She went back on her word to Horus. He could feel the body weighing him down, making him weak. ISIS told Horus she needed him, and could fix this. ISIS called a private meeting with a few of her honorable friends to help.

Trapped

As ISIS, was off to the side talking about what was needing to be done, Horus told me he feared he was trapped. He made me promise not to let him destroy anything while in the control of ISIS.

Osiris #2 (aka Horus the Younger), holds something within him that can be activated to destroy both bodies.

There would be no coming back from this. Horus the Younger must of heard something he shouldn’t, for making a deal like that was unheard of. But I agreed to it.

Returning The Spine

In this life I have done some major healing. My father had told me he knew Osiris didn’t have a spine. Even then, I didn’t give up where it was at. Once I realized keeping things that didn’t belong to me, and how important it was for my father to help all his children, I retrieved the spine.

I had Osiris meet me in the valley of some mountains, that is when I gave him what belonged to him. Now it’s not my fault he doesn’t use it. Well maybe it is. Having it kept from him all these years, maybe he forgot how to use it.

This is not told to hurt any of my family members. I tell my story to help my family heal. No matter what we did or said in the past should be brought past this life. They are me, as I am them.

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61 – Nephthys On That Night With Osiris

Following on from my previous entries, Nephthys agreed to 
write more about her memories in regards to past  events.

Back To The 5D

Once again, Nephthys agreed to write more about her memories regarding past events. The next three entries will cover them.

Remember, these events took place on the 5D.

The Night With Osiris

As we all know, I spent a night with Osiris. I’ve also told you that I would tell you what went down that night.

I try to always keep my word. I always forgive those who do me wrong. I’ve been told I was too nice, and that was one of the reasons why this goddess (ISIS) hated me so much. I gave Osiris my word that I wouldn’t tell anyone what we spoke about. I couldn’t even tell Seth.  The time I spent with Osiris, was the only time he was away from ISIS.

Once we were behind closed doors, he asked me to turn back into myself. For he spent all of his time looking at the face of ISIS, that it would be nice to see a different face. Besides, him telling me what she had done, felt weird telling it to the face of ISIS.

So, I shapeshifted back into Nephthys. Osiris said I didn’t make a very good ISIS: I wasn’t mean enough to be her. We laughed about it. For I knew firsthand what Isis was capable of.

Real Name

Osiris told me he had went against our father and brother. He didn’t speak of what that was about, just that he knew he had done wrong, but he was caught, and controlled by ISIS. She used her charm to get Osiris to even speak with her about her so-called plans (Which Osiris said was all a lie).

She had gotten Osiris’s real name. Said she wanted to try something with it, and if it worked, she gave her word she would release him. So, Osiris gave up his name, and ISIS went back on her word. Osiris was her bitch.

Isis would tell Osiris to do things, and if he refused, she would make him. She controlled him. He knew others were talking about him behind his back. And he didn’t know that ISIS was doing a practice run on Osiris, to achieve something bigger.

Once Osiris saw her gaining knowledge of our real names, and what she done to Ra, Osiris feared what she would do to him.

Guilt

I begged Osiris to let me tell our brother, and father what she was doing, but he said NO. Said he was told he got himself into this mess, he can get himself out. Osiris told me he’s just trying to be a good guy, but finding out that being a good guy got him in a trap. In the eyes of the public, if he didn’t follow her lead, she would control him to hurt others.

He felt guilt for giving up his real name. He felt weak for falling into her trap. She had taken all of his power. It was sad seeing him so powerless. I was upset that he wouldn’t stop ISIS. We had a plan to try, and work together to stop her. Osiris was nervous that it wouldn’t work, and wouldn’t let me get others to help stop her.

ISIS didn’t call me out ’cause I betrayed her, she called me out ’cause she saw the spark of hope in Osiris. When I turned to Osiris, waiting on him to say something to ISIS, all I saw was a darkness. She put out that spark he was holding onto.

After that, I wouldn’t look, speak, or even be in the same place as Osiris. I wanted nothing to do with him. I was ready to help him escape ISIS, but he threw me to the wolves so to speak.

The Love Spell

Osiris tried to talk with me, but I walked away every time. ISIS became jealous. She thought Osiris was wanting me instead of her. Not knowing he was just trying to apologize for what he done to me, and it was looking like she was wrong about me.

I wasn’t in love with Osiris, and others could tell. That’s when the love spells came into play.  Everyone in my family was angry at each other for some reason. Reasons no one would tell me about. Which was probably a good thing since I was under the puppet master ISIS.

I upset a lot of others by being so loyal to her. But as you all know now, it was a spell/curse and not my will to be loyal to her. So many damaging things were going on at the time, no one ever questioned why I was so loyal to her all of a sudden. Same went for Osiris. And those that did see this as being odd, just called us traitors. We have been bound by the spells of ISIS to be her puppets.

As for me, her spell/curse is no longer active. It’s been broken. I can’t speak on behalf of Osiris, so I can’t tell you if his curse is broke.

Anubis

I have a child who is upset with how he became. He had believed the lies about an affair. And I was already a puppet, I didn’t see the point in trying to fight for the truth. I’m sure he’ll hold more anger towards me for not trying to tell him.

Taking it upon myself to decide for him not to believe my side. I’ve met Anubis in this life. I could feel the anger he still holds for me. And for the record, it’s not that I was ashamed of him, or how he came about, I just didn’t see the point in trying to find someone to be on my side. By this time ISIS was very powerful.

My Thoughts On Anubis

What I find curious is that both Anubis and Nephthys seem to think that Osiris was his father. If I had to put money on it, I’d say that this was a trick of ISIS.

Anubis is the son of Seth and Nephthys. Anyone who even took a casual glance would see the resemblance to Seth.