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172 – Being Human – Am I Asexual?

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Being Asexual

As someone who is generally recognized as an incarnated god (for want of a better word), being human is not something I’m all that good at. I thought, though, I would write some entries on what it is like for me, and also what I’ve learned. This entry, I look at sex and if I am asexual.

Sex Drive

I’ve never had much interest in seeking out partners and having sex with them.

For many, sex is a driving force that creates relationships and is also a vital need. For me, it never has been.

I noticed that, once I had gotten past my shift into puberty, my sex drive appeared to diminish and by the time I was around age twenty, it was not really a primary factor when seeking a partner.

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171 – Being Human – Life Lessons

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As someone who is generally recognised as an incarnated god (for want of a better word), being human is not something I’m all that good at. I thought, though, I would write some entries on what it is like for me, and also what I’ve learned. This entry, I focus on some of my Life Lessons.

Filters

When I was younger, I had no filters. If I saw something, I would just say it. I also had a need to be acknowledged and recognized. Though, that might have been mostly because many people demeaned me and assumed I was mentally disabled or had a low intelligence. Hence, I had an overwhelming need to prove myself. Failure was not an option.

Filters didn’t really start to come until I was around 13 years old. Even then, it took me a long time to get my head around them.  If I saw something, I would say it. I also saw no reason to not state the obvious.

I just assumed that if I could see things, others could, too.

Things were so blatantly obvious to me that I just assumed that others ignored them because they didn’t consider them important. It turned out that they not only did not see them, but argued I was wrong. (Though, I found that I rarely was.)

The life lesson here was that not everyone sees things the same as others.

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170 – A god Being Human – What Is it Like?

Phoenix in human form 
Drawing By Carolina Pagatpatan

What Is It Like?

As someone who is generally recognised as an incarnated god (for want of a better word), being human is not a thing I’m all that good at. (Something that is frequently pointed out to me by some!) I thought, though, I would write some entries on what it is like for me, and also what I’ve learned.

Natural For Some

It’s an interesting titbit that while all human bodies are classed as human beings, not all are human. To me, it’s a generic term that does not aptly describe who and what they really are. My estimations put around one third of the population as Otherkin.

Being human is natural for many. For me, though, it isn’t.

It has sometimes been a lonely, frustrating, and depressing experience.

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