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63 – Nephthys -: Osiris’ Death. The Aftermath.

Secrets

I gave my word that I would never speak of what ISIS did to Osiris. Osiris made me give him my word. The only reason why I speak of it now is because of the damage it did to me, and to him.

I’m sure Seth’s anger had something to do with Osiris, and ISIS. But not the reasons we think. This may surprise most of you, but it had nothing to do with me.

Like I said before, my actions just added fuel to the fire. Not because Seth and I were in love, but because I always respected him, and took his advice.

Warnings

Seth warned me to stay away, but this one time, I didn’t listen. I took it upon myself to take ISIS at her word that she would leave me alone. I thought I could fix this on my own. Not knowing at the time, Osiris was in the situation he was in.

Because Osiris is my brother, I can feel when he’s upset with me. (Just like now, he feels I went back on my word.) Maybe I did, but I did it to help him. He’s my brother.

Guess you can say he’s the male side of my soul. I want to tell his story, to help him, and to heal what I’ve done to him.

Cut To Pieces

It is true, Seth did cut Osiris into pieces. It’s also true that I went with ISIS to gather all his parts. It is also true that a part of him wasn’t found. (The Phallus.) And it’s also true that his spine wasn’t found.

As ISIS and I searched for Osiris’s missing pieces, I found his spine. I was so pissed off at him for not speaking up on my behalf, I hid it. He didn’t use it anyways, why did he need it now? 

As ISIS, and I, put Osiris back together, she noticed the spine was missing. She also knew it wouldn’t work if all the pieces were not put back.

The Deal

So… ISIS made a deal with Horus. He was to step in, and become Osiris. She told him this would only be temporary. As Horus went around as Osiris, ISIS, and I kept searching for those missing pieces. At this point, I hated ISIS, and Osiris, and I wasn’t giving up what I had hidden.

ISIS started to notice that the body of Osiris was starting to look different. It wasn’t holding its shape. Its spine was missing. ISIS panicked.

She went back on her word to Horus. He could feel the body weighing him down, making him weak. ISIS told Horus she needed him, and could fix this. ISIS called a private meeting with a few of her honorable friends to help.

Trapped

As ISIS, was off to the side talking about what was needing to be done, Horus told me he feared he was trapped. He made me promise not to let him destroy anything while in the control of ISIS.

Osiris #2 (aka Horus the Younger), holds something within him that can be activated to destroy both bodies.

There would be no coming back from this. Horus the Younger must of heard something he shouldn’t, for making a deal like that was unheard of. But I agreed to it.

Returning The Spine

In this life I have done some major healing. My father had told me he knew Osiris didn’t have a spine. Even then, I didn’t give up where it was at. Once I realized keeping things that didn’t belong to me, and how important it was for my father to help all his children, I retrieved the spine.

I had Osiris meet me in the valley of some mountains, that is when I gave him what belonged to him. Now it’s not my fault he doesn’t use it. Well maybe it is. Having it kept from him all these years, maybe he forgot how to use it.

This is not told to hurt any of my family members. I tell my story to help my family heal. No matter what we did or said in the past should be brought past this life. They are me, as I am them.

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62 – Nephthys Speaks About Seth

Nephthys Speaks About Seth

To me, Seth has always been a subject of interest. I know he was around me from the very start of this life. Both as antagonist and protector.

There was a time in the 80s when just thinking of the name gave me a very uncomfortable feeling, though I did not know why.  But that story is recounted in “I am The Phoenix”.

What follows are Nephthys’ thoughts on Seth.

Childhood

Growing up, my grandparents were my life. Never in my life did I ever love so much, and so hard. I spent weekends with them. In return, I had to go to Church on Sundays. Fine by me. I remember hearing about Seth, and what he was about. The bible called him the devil. He was a bad person, and would harm us, but as long as we served their God, he couldn’t hurt us.

Now I wasn’t really into what the Church had to say, but the stories of Seth made me feel uneasy. And it seemed like every Sunday I went to Church, they were always preaching about how bad the devil was, and how God is the only one to save you from him.

The Devil

As a teenager, I feared the devil. No, I didn’t pray, but I felt like I had been found. Like I was/ had been in hiding. I felt like the Church singled me out. Bad things would happen to me. I knew it was the “Devil” doing it.

I remember at one time, saying “wow, I must be special for the Devil to attack me so much”. As my life seemed to get darker, the attacks got stronger.

I was married to an Apep Avatar, who was taking my power away from me, and I was getting attacked by something I couldn’t see.

Computer Game

One day my husband brought me home this computer game that had to do with Gods, and Goddesses of Egypt. I played the game, and fell in love with ISIS, and Osiris.

I wished I was ISIS. I would feel this pull from inside me telling me to love this game, and to play it as much as I could.  I remember hating Nephthys, and Seth. At the time, I didn’t know that this Egyptian computer game was the key that activated the love spell/curse ISIS put on me.

At one point, my husband was hurting physically. His lower back was giving him problems. After months of hearing him cry like a baby, I was done. I wanted his pain to go away. I tried everything. The one thing that came to my mind was to offer my soul to the devil. The devil who had been attacking me.

The Bargain

The one I feared the most: Seth. That night as my husband, and I were walking to bed, I stated in my head, Seth, my soul is yours to keep, if you make my husband’s pain go away. The next day, I woke up to my husband all happy being pain free. At that moment, my heart sank. The devil had taken me up on my offer. At that point I said I was going to live life.

I was going to see as much beauty this world had to offer before leaving it, because my soul was going to burn in hell. Needless to say, that didn’t happen.

As the days went by, my life became darker, and darker. I would try to find ways out. The attacks on me were stronger, and stronger. At one point I broke. I told the devil enough was enough. He had my soul already, so leave me alone, stop attacking me.

Soul Searching

As life became so dark, I became powerless. I didn’t care if my soul was going to hell to burn, I wanted out of this place.

For me earth is a hell all on its own. The attempts to leave never worked. Forces I couldn’t see fought against me, leaving me here on earth. I even got to the point of hating the Devil.

As I grew older, things started happening. I started doing some soul searching. That’s when I found my soul father. And through him, I met my brother. At first, I didn’t have a good feeling about meeting him. I felt like he didn’t care much for me. But I really didn’t feel all that great about him. I didn’t know why, but something felt off.

Confusion

When I found out the name of my brother, I felt confused. Why did he attack me all those times, all those years? I was already having a bad time at life, why make it harder. Why attack me?

Those questions were answered. He attacked me, because of who I am, and that was suppose to take place, to help me wake up. My brother hated me, and he had very good reasons to.

When things started going bad in Egypt, he felt like I turned on him. Others had already turned on him, making him look like the bad guy, when really, they were the bad guys. Power hungry gods, and goddesses.

I focused on this feeling of not liking Seth very much, and wanted to know why, so I asked to feel my emotions that were attached to him. I didn’t hate him for all the bad things he done to me to help me wake up. I was angry at him for leaving me behind.  I blamed him for not getting me away from ISIS. I was upset because I told him the truth about the ISIS, and Osiris thing.

Part of the Problem

Out of all, Seth should have known I was telling the truth, but he walked away, telling me I got myself into this mess, I can get myself out. What I done probably added fuel to the fire, but Seth’s anger didn’t come from what I did, it was something else. Something I really didn’t know about, because of what ISIS had me going through.

I felt so ashamed for spending so much energy on hating him for something he didn’t do. He might have left me behind, but I had created a mess for myself. A mess I didn’t want no part of, but became a part of, nonetheless.

Once you became a part of the problem, you couldn’t get out. ISIS wouldn’t let you.

Do I still fear Seth? No, I do not. Do I forgive him for leaving me behind? Not really. As for now I see he had nothing to do with it.  My choices made me stay behind. I regret holding anger towards him, for blaming him. The real question is… Does Seth hold anything against me for blaming him for my mistakes?

My Thoughts on Deals

Making any kind of deal with Lucifer (The Devil) or Seth (Satan) is not really a wise idea, no matter what your reasons. It’s short term gains for long term pains, assuming you are able to survive the consequences.

Many do it, and pay the price.

In this case, Nephthys got lucky. The deal she made was dissolved upon my request. I just happened to be in a position where I was able to do that.

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61 – Nephthys On That Night With Osiris

Following on from my previous entries, Nephthys agreed to 
write more about her memories in regards to past  events.

Back To The 5D

Once again, Nephthys agreed to write more about her memories regarding past events. The next three entries will cover them.

Remember, these events took place on the 5D.

The Night With Osiris

As we all know, I spent a night with Osiris. I’ve also told you that I would tell you what went down that night.

I try to always keep my word. I always forgive those who do me wrong. I’ve been told I was too nice, and that was one of the reasons why this goddess (ISIS) hated me so much. I gave Osiris my word that I wouldn’t tell anyone what we spoke about. I couldn’t even tell Seth.  The time I spent with Osiris, was the only time he was away from ISIS.

Once we were behind closed doors, he asked me to turn back into myself. For he spent all of his time looking at the face of ISIS, that it would be nice to see a different face. Besides, him telling me what she had done, felt weird telling it to the face of ISIS.

So, I shapeshifted back into Nephthys. Osiris said I didn’t make a very good ISIS: I wasn’t mean enough to be her. We laughed about it. For I knew firsthand what Isis was capable of.

Real Name

Osiris told me he had went against our father and brother. He didn’t speak of what that was about, just that he knew he had done wrong, but he was caught, and controlled by ISIS. She used her charm to get Osiris to even speak with her about her so-called plans (Which Osiris said was all a lie).

She had gotten Osiris’s real name. Said she wanted to try something with it, and if it worked, she gave her word she would release him. So, Osiris gave up his name, and ISIS went back on her word. Osiris was her bitch.

Isis would tell Osiris to do things, and if he refused, she would make him. She controlled him. He knew others were talking about him behind his back. And he didn’t know that ISIS was doing a practice run on Osiris, to achieve something bigger.

Once Osiris saw her gaining knowledge of our real names, and what she done to Ra, Osiris feared what she would do to him.

Guilt

I begged Osiris to let me tell our brother, and father what she was doing, but he said NO. Said he was told he got himself into this mess, he can get himself out. Osiris told me he’s just trying to be a good guy, but finding out that being a good guy got him in a trap. In the eyes of the public, if he didn’t follow her lead, she would control him to hurt others.

He felt guilt for giving up his real name. He felt weak for falling into her trap. She had taken all of his power. It was sad seeing him so powerless. I was upset that he wouldn’t stop ISIS. We had a plan to try, and work together to stop her. Osiris was nervous that it wouldn’t work, and wouldn’t let me get others to help stop her.

ISIS didn’t call me out ’cause I betrayed her, she called me out ’cause she saw the spark of hope in Osiris. When I turned to Osiris, waiting on him to say something to ISIS, all I saw was a darkness. She put out that spark he was holding onto.

After that, I wouldn’t look, speak, or even be in the same place as Osiris. I wanted nothing to do with him. I was ready to help him escape ISIS, but he threw me to the wolves so to speak.

The Love Spell

Osiris tried to talk with me, but I walked away every time. ISIS became jealous. She thought Osiris was wanting me instead of her. Not knowing he was just trying to apologize for what he done to me, and it was looking like she was wrong about me.

I wasn’t in love with Osiris, and others could tell. That’s when the love spells came into play.  Everyone in my family was angry at each other for some reason. Reasons no one would tell me about. Which was probably a good thing since I was under the puppet master ISIS.

I upset a lot of others by being so loyal to her. But as you all know now, it was a spell/curse and not my will to be loyal to her. So many damaging things were going on at the time, no one ever questioned why I was so loyal to her all of a sudden. Same went for Osiris. And those that did see this as being odd, just called us traitors. We have been bound by the spells of ISIS to be her puppets.

As for me, her spell/curse is no longer active. It’s been broken. I can’t speak on behalf of Osiris, so I can’t tell you if his curse is broke.

Anubis

I have a child who is upset with how he became. He had believed the lies about an affair. And I was already a puppet, I didn’t see the point in trying to fight for the truth. I’m sure he’ll hold more anger towards me for not trying to tell him.

Taking it upon myself to decide for him not to believe my side. I’ve met Anubis in this life. I could feel the anger he still holds for me. And for the record, it’s not that I was ashamed of him, or how he came about, I just didn’t see the point in trying to find someone to be on my side. By this time ISIS was very powerful.

My Thoughts On Anubis

What I find curious is that both Anubis and Nephthys seem to think that Osiris was his father. If I had to put money on it, I’d say that this was a trick of ISIS.

Anubis is the son of Seth and Nephthys. Anyone who even took a casual glance would see the resemblance to Seth.