Self-Indulgence
The last entry Nephthys wrote for me, was about me. (Geb) Maybe it’s self-indulgent me putting it here, but I’m going to do so, anyway.
I thank Neph for her contributions and shedding light on a controversial part of mythology.
In The Beginning
In the beginning, before everything went bad, Geb took care of us all. We listened when he spoke, for his words never harmed any of us. He was helpful to all. Not just some, but to all.
All Gods came to Geb at one time, or another. Sometimes we would get upset for not hearing what we wanted, but once we saw he was right, time and time again, it just felt natural to seek Geb.
He didn’t care how big, or small your problem was, he always had a solution. When disagreements came about, Geb was the peace maker. He didn’t take sides, he took both parties, and showed them a solution to end the problem.
Strong Bond
Now don’t think Geb wasn’t powerful, he was one of the most powerful.
Geb had a strong bond with all his children. You could say he wasn’t just our father, he was our friend. He protected us, as we protected him. He would have gatherings with family, and friends all the time.
When our family started to have problems, Geb was there for us all. He never picked sides. His children (Osiris, and Nephthys) thought we could make some choices without consulting Geb.
He warned us and tried to get us to stop what we were doing, but we were already in too deep. Geb never turned his back on us for doing our wrong. Even being deep in shit, Geb never left our side.
Guess you could say, his children actually left him.
A Dark Place
But the one thing about Geb is that he has never held anger towards any of us. With all the wrong we’ve done, my father is still here for us, helping us heal.
When I found Geb in this life, I was in a very dark place. My father never once turned me away, instead he helped me heal. I wanted to leave this hell, but my father stood beside me, and pushed me forward. He would not let me give up.
As I go to write what I know, I fill with anger, and I want to let everyone know he didn’t do anything wrong. You all blame him for your actions. We all chose fame, and power over doing what was right. We are not stuck here: we are paying our dues/healing from our mistakes.
Going Home
The longer it takes for you to stop blaming him, the sooner you can go home. He is not stopping you from leaving this place, you are stopping yourself. You know deep down in your soul you did wrong. Not Geb.
Before things went bad in Egypt, everyone looked to Geb for guidance. He never done any of us wrong. You didn’t have to be his family for Geb to help you with what was needed. We all listened to what he had to say, and never thought he could possibly be wrong. The powers he holds were/is to protect all of us, not help wage war on each other.
When things started changing, Geb was the one who tried to make peace. He didn’t preach to the crowds, but each individual that he knew was having problems, he would go and talk with.
Geb’s family was very important to him. And with Isis, Nut, Hathor, and Lilith all trying to take his power, (Phoenix power) Geb stayed back in the shadows listening and watching.
Warnings
Giving warnings to us all. Geb warned Osiris, but Osiris chose not to listen to his father. I chose not to listen to my father.
Even with Seth giving me the same warning, I didn’t listen. Seth… he listened to what Geb had to say, but the anger that raged inside, made Seth choose to leave.
As Egypt started to fall, Geb was still there for us all.
Sure, he had his own enemies trying to destroy him so they could rule in his place. By that I mean, his voice was calming, his words were wisdom. Geb’s doing now, as he did then, helping us all remember who we are, helping us heal, so we can all go home.
Let Go
If we know who we are, and have memories of the past, why can’t you remember how kind Geb was? Why can you not let go of the hate you created for him because of your actions of the past?
Let go of the past if you want to go home. Let Geb show you how to get home. He’s been here with us all this time, trying to help us all find our way home.
So you hold anger because Geb didn’t stop the fall of Egypt? We all knew what we were doing would catch up to us at some point. We all knew Geb could have stopped it all, but what would we have learned from that?
Nothing, except for we can do what we want, ’cause we know someone would come behind us, and fix it. That would have just made things worse for this world.
Could you imagine all Gods fighting for power in this day and age? I can tell you now, the world would not be as it is today. You would not have the freedom you do now.
Forgiveness
I’ve done some very bad things in my past that I’m not proud of, but one thing I am proud of is Geb. He forgave me for all the wrong I’ve done. He’s the one who helped me heal in this life.
Geb wants to go home too, but he refuses to leave any of us who truly want to heal and go home, behind. You may not like what he has to say, but believe me, he knows what he’s talking about.
I choose to stay here and heal. I want to go home more than anything, but I will not go until Geb goes, too.
Sorry for sounding so harsh, I just get full of rage when I see others thinking my father is here to harm us. When others blame him for their own actions. I was a dark evil bitch for many life times, I was forgiven, and started to heal. During that process, I was told I get to go home. So please tell me how Geb is at fault for our actions.
Healing
I’ve seen many come to my father for healing, and I’ve seen others attack him for helping all of us and blaming him for their mistakes.
Geb could go home at any time he wanted, but he refuses to leave any of his family behind. We all came here together; we all leave here together.